Utter Confusion

She is sounding incredibly confusing right now!

She, is, one of my closest friends. She, is, about to ruin her life. Throw it all way.

You are wondering why! I will tell you why!

Sometimes, humans, just revert to their very primal and basically?! ‘Just..bizarre needs’ of love and connection. That’s how ‘I’ see it! But then, I’m a a cynic! So while you read this, don’t take my approach very seriously! And that is fine with me. Fist pump?! Anyone?! No? That’s ok..

My friend, is falling for a man.

My friend, is not ‘even sure’..she can call it ‘falling’! Gaaaaaa! Ok ok …I’m biting my tongue at this point. ‘Go on’, I ushered her to continue! But ‘I’ am ready to hit the next bar and down a bunch of tequila shots! Wait! I hate tequila!

Back to our story…

My crazy friend, wants sympathy. As I sit there, wanting to just drive her to a hairdresser and give her a zero buzz and send her off to Tibet! Maybe she needs to hangout with some wise monks, until she comes back to her senses.

– – – –

Her: I am attracted to him spiritually (dreamy eyes telling me this: I am in so deep with my attraction, physically too) While twirling a stand of her hair

Me: …Silence and dreaming of a cold….Gin… to put me out of my misery! RIGHT NOW! Bartender keep it coming! But we are at? A freakin coffee shop! Of course! Picture me leaning back into my seat, tapping my hand ‘lightly’ on the table in sad protesting surrender?! Yup!…a coffee shop! I mean?! What else am I supposed to do?! Ask the young beautifully tattooed barista for his ‘stash’! Hmmm..Sounds..very appealing right now…But nah..I may get him fired. Coffee it is…Big sigh.

Her: I don’t need to ‘define’ the relationship! I’m ok just…being with him!

Me: …my eyes are glazing over. Wanting to say ‘honey bunch! No one! NO ONE! Look at me: NO ONE, wants to just ‘be’ with you! Unless (and there’s a very small list I won’t go through right now, as it’s unnecessary at this point), but yah, no one, wants to just (be) with you! Men are wired differently! Recognize it. Accept it, and freakin make up your mind once and for all!

Her: He is my soulmate.

Me: my inner voice is now screaming a bunch of profanities ‘I’ I…had no idea I even knew!

Her: I am full of this wonderful…energy!!?

Me: contemplating saying…are you asking me to fill in the blank for you on that one?! Cuz my guess would be? Complete kooky erratic wacky, crazy impulse???!. But I’ll remain quiet, and continue to dream of a cold drink! Gin won’t cut it anymore…

Why do humans, especially women, do this?!’ I’m outside now…screaming then going back in…all smiling now..while whispering ‘everything is ok! I just lost my voice to excessive screaming! YOU need to be extremely thankful! Why? So I won’t tell you what ‘I’ truuuuuuly think! Luv ya! Bye!’

Author: Kat

I used to work as a graphic designer, until one day I was tragically and blissfully hit by two colliding meteors! One caused my falling in love with the world of coffee! And the other resulted in me falling out of love with the not so wonderful and nearly suffocating office culture! I left the glamour of the design world, and opened up my little café! Those were the best years of my life! I say ‘were’, because (wait! May be another time! But please do ask me if you ‘must’ know and can’t sleep tonight unless I tell you!) For the past three years, I have been living in a pyramid shape house in a middle of a green forest in the summer; a green forest buried underneath lots - I mean LOTS - of snow in the winter. I used to ‘think I still do ;)’ love the city! With its buzzing energy! I love to travel and seeing different food and coffee scenes...preferably alone! visiting ‘quirky and unusual’ places! I do not love visiting museums, hugely commercialized areas, malls and landmarks! I love old and full of heritage ‘anything’! I also love, to sit in a busy coffeeshop ‘reading quietly’ and not talking! Talking exhausts me most of the time! Watching the world unfold.. and thinking ...never does!

12 thoughts on “Utter Confusion”

    1. ‘Just order another shot of espresso’. Luv it!

      Agree. Everyone has to forge their own path, make their own mistakes (no matter the repetition of those who screamed ‘please learn from mine’…), and grow at their own pace.

      Love and light to you today.


    1. Good morning Angela!

      Yes it’s hard. Like this part of a song I am listening to:

      “In joy and pain each one will grow
      For wisdom is so much more than what we know
      And every child will find their way
      Of living the whole life story day by

      Thank you for reading my babbling Angela. ♥️☕️

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