I’d like to be, Anna Madrigal.
As a heterosexual woman, this is a tricky subject! As one can risk getting easily misunderstood!
But I feel…this place is where I can be myself! It’s where I can lift the edge of my long dress, and marsh into the dreary and murky terrains, of all the possible misunderstandings…and postulations.
My head is held up high! My fears of the soft soil beneath my steps, are real! But they’re are not enough, to scare me.
I would like, to be, Anna Madrigal when I grow up.
I did not undergo a gender change op. I am a female. But, watching myself weep at the end of the series ‘Tales of The City”, compelled me to stop and think!
Anna died! It’s like I knew her! Anna shouldn’t die!
I loved Anna.
It made me realize, how tired I am, of all societal prejudices! How, I feel, I am strong enough, to take on that role one day! Be the ‘gracious’ dope smoking, sugar addict..90 years old…protector! Open up a haven, for those who are mistreated for their ‘love’, and misjudged for pursuing their love. It’s just too painful to whiteness and do nothing.
Yes, I do realize, the LBTQ community has come a long way. I get that. But some, some, continue to live in such sad vulnerability!
The show, opened up my eyes, to so many things.
I’ve had my share of indoctrination. I’ve had my share of religious agendas being pushed on me day in and day out!
“Today, you need to conform! Today! Your Christian Faith better shine brighter! Judge! You must judge all sin”! NO. I will not ‘judge all sin’. I will not place God in a box. He’s mine. What happens between he and I, is my business! And only mine. I will not, judge. I am no better, than anyone. My faith, does not, credit me with a righteously judging badge that I can flash in the face of others. Anytime I feel like it!
I had my share of Judaism too! “You need to pay attention to who you are! Be faithful to your conviction! Judge! You must judge!” No. I will not. I love and respect Judaism and think it’s wonderful! But my faith is mine. My way. No one else’s.
I am incredibly proud, of not allowing all that tremendous pressure I was subjected to, over so many years, whether it’s Christianity or Judaism, to sway me! To change how I feel and think! I did not, conform.
I will always be my accepting self. I will always hear and respect everyone. I will always dream, of becoming Anna.