Happened to me today!
But first, sorry for being away! You handful of people who read my blog that (no matter how much I resist), I have actually become attached to …deep in my psyche! Please do not take offence to me resisting attachment! I fight ‘attachment’ in every shape and form I encounter! To the point: I was walking these wonderful dogs lately! And? After a few months of walking them in sometimes? -35 with windshield! I …became…you guessed it! completely and despondently… attached!
So, when the time was up (they were moving to a different city), I said my goodbyes, cried after, alone in my car! And moved on. Yup! That’s me!
I would frequent pet stores, buying them warm coats and…of course… treats too! Then when the owner would offer to pay? Half the time, I refused! I ‘wanted’ them to basically, be super warm and their paws protected from all the salt we experience thrown on our icy roads! So! No. And the treats? Pff! One lick of my face? I am paid back in multiple!
I didn’t tell anyone I did that! I seriously loved those dogs, but my deep insistence, on being a loner, living like a loner, and having zero interest in the world knowing..about my mushy heart (especially with dogs), I decided to not share!
I have this strong face that I feel, I need to guard and always present to the outsiders. And that’s how it’s going to be!
Please allow me to compose myself at this point of this post! Those dogs? Zazoozeled themselves into my heart and never left! That a word? ‘Zazoozeled’
Back to how people inspire us now!
Yes, it happened to me today! I became inspired to be:
– A better person
– To believe in my gifts
– To stop shutting the world out
The world out there ..is ‘still’…worth exploring 🙂