What Is Wrong With Me

Denver…

I’ve been exploring, walking everywhere…I even attended a ‘rap’ concert the other night…

I think, I was happy until..today…

Could it be that, I’m simply feeling alone? The sense of me taking on a city full of strangers? Not talking to another human?

I talk to my two Weimaraner companions while here. I am taking care of my friend’s dogs while she’s away. I love these two dearly. I prefer their company over ..others

So how does this make any sense?! It’s precisely why I’m here! To reflect. To be..alone. I’m used to it! It’s how I live and been living for a long time. Then what’s with this sense of…whatever I am experiencing?!

My heart is heavy…My sense of self esteem is low. And up and down…I go

Author: Kat

I used to work as a graphic designer, until one day I was tragically and blissfully hit by two colliding meteors! One caused my falling in love with the world of coffee! And the other resulted in me falling out of love with the not so wonderful and nearly suffocating office culture! I left the glamour of the design world, and opened up my little café! Those were the best years of my life! I say ‘were’, because (wait! May be another time! But please do ask me if you ‘must’ know and can’t sleep tonight unless I tell you!) For the past three years, I have been living in a pyramid shape house in a middle of a green forest in the summer; a green forest buried underneath lots - I mean LOTS - of snow in the winter. I used to ‘think I still do ;)’ love the city! With its buzzing energy! I love to travel and seeing different food and coffee scenes...preferably alone! visiting ‘quirky and unusual’ places! I do not love visiting museums, hugely commercialized areas, malls and landmarks! I love old and full of heritage ‘anything’! I also love, to sit in a busy coffeeshop ‘reading quietly’ and not talking! Talking exhausts me most of the time! Watching the world unfold.. and thinking ...never does!

4 thoughts on “What Is Wrong With Me”

  1. two very patient (beautiful) Weimaraners….as the squirrel comes out of the shadows….barely a twitch

    feeling like a stranger in your own skin can be perplexing – questioning confidence, self reliance – you’re putting yourself to the test no? one of those pups senses it, the other wants to run away….somewhere, anywhere

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    1. Yes they are incredibly beautiful and patient. They’ve been the most amazing companions I could ask for.

      I think Mark, I was testing ‘me’ before I even came here. It’s all from before I came here. This city is lovely. I’m just not me. Haven’t been for a while.

      Thank you for stopping by.

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