For Amanda

A friend once said to me ‘..enjoying very simple things, ignoring what is pushed as “good” or “beautiful” or “popular” makes a person an outsider by choice.’

As I sit here early morning, moderately agonizing over what lately has been like a famish of inspiration, an unnatural drought of words, and a thin trickle of imagination where the literary river once used to scorch the earth with whimsy! I can’t help but think of you…

After discovering you ‘again’ lately, I am astonished by your strength!

I remember your poster pictures plastered on Toronto subway walls. Your golden Medusa locks! Your calm stare! I remember your warm strong voice! I remember how your lyrics used to make me wonder ‘how are you capable of such wisdom and deep human reflection?! You’re still in your early twenties?! I’m your age and I feel..I don’t know…anything at all!!!’

Years went by. I thought you had disappeared! I looked for you and couldn’t find you!

And right when I thought, your musical journey, and my foggy barren brain, are both now, a field of parched cracks, where no beautiful dark horses will be able to leave any imprints, you emerge!

Amanda Marshall, learning you had a concert in my town lately, filled me with profound joy! You were…here. Not in Toronto! Here…

The defertilzed earth of music and imagination, is greening up with massive luscious vines again! The once lifelessly flowing river of words and whimsy, is swooshing again in my head. I am no longer crossing to its other side, crying over…my dry feet.

You are simply different from the rest. Your choice of ‘enjoying very simple things, ignoring what pushed as “good” or “beautiful” or “popular”…made you an outsider by choice to many, but not to me!

Now I know why you had disappeared! Now I know, choosing to be an outsider, is what some of us need, to find ourselves. And now? I cannot stop listening to all your lyrics…revelling in the warmth of your voice and your… wisdom! Now I understand way much…better.

Author: Kat

I used to work as a graphic designer, until one day I was tragically and blissfully hit by two colliding meteors! One caused my falling in love with the world of coffee! And the other resulted in me falling out of love with the not so wonderful and nearly suffocating office culture! I left the glamour of the design world, and opened up my little café! Those were the best years of my life! I say ‘were’, because (wait! May be another time! But please do ask me if you ‘must’ know and can’t sleep tonight unless I tell you!) For the past three years, I have been living in a pyramid shape house in a middle of a green forest in the summer; a green forest buried underneath lots - I mean LOTS - of snow in the winter. I used to ‘think I still do ;)’ love the city! With its buzzing energy! I love to travel and seeing different food and coffee scenes...preferably alone! visiting ‘quirky and unusual’ places! I do not love visiting museums, hugely commercialized areas, malls and landmarks! I love old and full of heritage ‘anything’! I also love, to sit in a busy coffeeshop ‘reading quietly’ and not talking! Talking exhausts me most of the time! Watching the world unfold.. and thinking ...never does!

14 thoughts on “For Amanda”

  1. Just listened to “Dark Horse”. The first comment on the page says “most under rated singing ever”. The third, “should be millions of views…she is awesome”.
    I had not ever listened to her music….what a soul…what a voice.
    “Let it Rain”…wow!

    Thank you

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    1. She simply ‘chose’ to be ‘an outsider’ to be…happy and to be…real..Mark!

      Such a joy we ‘both’ know and feel this truth.

      You’re welcome 🙂


  2. I am going to look her music up later. She seems such a sensitive soul. Looking in from the outside, to things only one who won’t quit searching will find. Your post is such an encouragement to me this Monday on the equator. Sending you lots of love.

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    1. Love what you just said Gina! I have tremendous respect for Amanda. Such a sensitive soul indeed! But what I love the most about her: Her respect for ‘herself’, her pride in being who she is and not caring what the world thinks she should do or not do! Being truthful to who she really is, makes her and idol in my eyes and I’m not one who is fond of idolizing artists etc! But she is a bright star in my life! Her lyrics?! Speak the honest truth about who we should be as humans, and how we need to ‘actually see’ the world, and not give in to biases and bigotry! Then when she writes about love, I feel, she understands love at a much higher level than any other musician I listen to.

      I will be incredibly sad if I am not going to be attending her next concert.

      Love to you my friend! Thank you for letting me share this passion for such an amazing soul and artist.

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      1. oh I can truly feel your passion, not idolizing a celebrity at all, some artists really have the human factor, not a put on act. they are genuine, that is what comes across, they are real people expressing what we are feeling in such an intense and heartfelt manner.

        I so love your enthusiasm for her music.

        Much love and thank you for sharing her with us!

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