– This busyness of life is not helping you much, is it?!

– I don’t think so.

– Your latest poster was sent to print. You did a great job on the design.

– No. I used to do great design work! I’m all washed out now.

– I disagree! You also baked hundreds of colourful beautiful and delicious French Macarons! You did amazing!

– Thanks. But please stop.

Silence …

– Can I At least ask you a question?!

– Sure..

– Please don’t get upset! But…how come you laugh a lot?! How go to all these functions?! ..How come you look confident and strong and and..and with it?! Perfectly with it!

– No idea.

– Can you describe your thoughts to me?! I promise to try to understand.


– …At least try!


– Do you think all these feelings you have, are warranted?!

– Highly doubt it.

-…Then why are you giving in to them?!

-….I’m not giving in to them! They’ve been ruling my waking hours, and tormenting my sleep!

– Is there a solution to this?!

– ..You don’t have to stay here.

– I am not asking you out of spite! I’m simply trying to help you get out of your head!

-… Your tone is unappreciated…

– I am really sorry. ….I just would like to understand your thought process! Maybe then, I can come up with something!

– How can you when I don’t understand any of this myself?!

-….Can I make you tea?! Let’s have tea!

A faint smile emerges.

-… please. But…

– But What?!

-…Can you hug me and not talk?!

– Yes


image: Marco Bianchetti/unsplash

Author: Kat

I used to work as a graphic designer, until one day I was tragically and blissfully hit by two colliding meteors! One caused my falling in love with the world of coffee! And the other resulted in me falling out of love with the not so wonderful and nearly suffocating office culture! I left the glamour of the design world, and opened up my little café! Those were the best years of my life! I say ‘were’, because (wait! May be another time! But please do ask me if you ‘must’ know and can’t sleep tonight unless I tell you!) For the past three years, I have been living in a pyramid shape house in a middle of a green forest in the summer; a green forest buried underneath lots - I mean LOTS - of snow in the winter. I used to ‘think I still do ;)’ love the city! With its buzzing energy! I love to travel and seeing different food and coffee scenes...preferably alone! visiting ‘quirky and unusual’ places! I do not love visiting museums, hugely commercialized areas, malls and landmarks! I love old and full of heritage ‘anything’! I also love, to sit in a busy coffeeshop ‘reading quietly’ and not talking! Talking exhausts me most of the time! Watching the world unfold.. and thinking ...never does!

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