Your Mood

Something is happening with your mood! However, it does not affect me! And I don’t believe it should!

That was the thought I had, while smiling and watching J, my product designer/architect/coffee customer _who buys way too much coffee from me_ this morning at our usual Italian café!

The other J, my other friend_who used to be the first J’s professor in Chicago, a million years ago! I know it’s a bizarre world!_was sitting at the table too, busy sipping his cappuccino.

J1, if I may call him that, is a brilliant personality! One cannot but admire such brain! The wealth of knowledge! Architecture, art history, design history..! It’s all..there, meticulously filed in chronological order!

It was apparent, J1 was in a bit of a mood today! Despite his usual happy self, the generous smile on his face..etc, I could sense ‘something’! Something was going on around that spotless chrome filing cabinet of a brain!

My vivid imagination, as I was sitting there, kept picturing a chair that had fallen, and is now laying on its side, or, a bookshelf that had given way underneath all those amazing rare and heavy encyclopedias! Inside J1’s brain!

See, I can imagine anything I want with my brain! Even if it is for my mere entertainment! It’s my brain, I could do whatever I want with it! Not that anyone is arguing with me on that one! I suppose I just feel like saying it.

It’s Mies’ 133 Birthday today! J1 said to J2.

Referring to Mies van der Rohe. The famous Bahaus modernist architect known for ‘less is more’ in his style.

As I sat there, watching people, listening to all those Mies and Gropius tales and a variety of architectural discussions between J1 & J2, I kept feeling calmer and calmer! I was very relaxed! J1’s hard to explain tone and body language at certain moments, which was making me feel like I was invisible in the conversation at times, only managed to cause such calming effect on me!

Maybe it’s because, I am aware of J1’s level of complexity and eccentricity! We all know, or have at least encountered people, who are incredibly smart, but who can be socially awkward at times! It’s hard to know for certain, when they mean to act awkwardly or if it’s just how they are! Did they mean to make us feel…inferior, less enlightened…not up to speed with certain important topics etc etc etc?! Or, was it simply case of sudden unintentional awkwardness?! One can never be certain.

I love intellectual conversations! I do. That’s why I meet with these two friends every now and then! And we usually have no issues with the variation in our level of awareness or general intelligence! But today, was a slightly different experience! And I wouldn’t say that I particularly enjoyed it as much as I usually do! Yet nonetheless, it did not shake me nor shock me!

I can say, that I was aware of my own self confidence during that meeting this morning! I also enjoyed, my refusal, to allow random ‘inexplainable’ acts, to cause me to question myself! I was sure I was irrelevant to what was happening inside J1’s head! Was it a fallen chair blocking the narrow pathway in that immaculately organized brain of his?! I don’t know! Was it an old shelf caving in underneath all those encyclopedic books?! I don’t know either!

In the end, it still was a great time! And I hope, they are saying the same.

Author: Kat

I used to work as a graphic designer, until one day I was tragically and blissfully hit by two colliding meteors! One caused my falling in love with the world of coffee! And the other resulted in me falling out of love with the not so wonderful and nearly suffocating office culture! I left the glamour of the design world, and opened up my little café! Those were the best years of my life! I say ‘were’, because (wait! May be another time! But please do ask me if you ‘must’ know and can’t sleep tonight unless I tell you!) For the past three years, I have been living in a pyramid shape house in a middle of a green forest in the summer; a green forest buried underneath lots - I mean LOTS - of snow in the winter. I used to ‘think I still do ;)’ love the city! With its buzzing energy! I love to travel and seeing different food and coffee scenes...preferably alone! visiting ‘quirky and unusual’ places! I do not love visiting museums, hugely commercialized areas, malls and landmarks! I love old and full of heritage ‘anything’! I also love, to sit in a busy coffeeshop ‘reading quietly’ and not talking! Talking exhausts me most of the time! Watching the world unfold.. and thinking ...never does!

14 thoughts on “Your Mood”

  1. I also love intellectual conversations because my father was an intellectual. I so miss him! You can always learn so much from other people like your friends J1 and J2 and architecture is a fascinating topic. I am basically a lover of arts and literature. I also love discussing politics and philosophy. That is why I very often feel empty in a shallow world. But, like you, I have a few friends with whom I can discuss deeper issue from time to time. I often compare my life stages with the circles of life in a tree. Here is a poem on this which touched my soul. I highly recommend it to you:

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    1. Thank you for sharing that bit about your father Marta! I could understand how you must him very much! But he’s still around you! Guiding you and watching over you. He sounds like he was a wonderful man.

      So glad to learn you love the arts too beside literature! Wow, you love discussing politics and philosophy too! I so wish you were here! Life will be way less shallow for the both of us! But glad you have friends who can fill that void from time to time.

      Comparing your life stages, to the circles of life in a tree! Love that comparison! Very fitting and very clever! I hope yours, is compared to a strong and beautiful mighty oak 😊.

      I read the poem! It made me think deeper about life, the seasons, how our life is a compilation of repeated seasons. Every season leaves its mark, on the finer of our existence. Thank you for sharing it Marta.

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  2. i love how you evaluated your own self confidence here, an awesome post, one that resonates with me. i love conversation and being connected through words and interesting subjects but like you am very sensitive to body language. over time i have realised maybe too sensitive that i miss out on connecting with a person. so now i take a mental step back and enjoy the experience from my side of the fence. i do enjoy your brain’s musings my dear! you have such interesting friends and i know they must enjoy your company too!

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    1. Thank you Gina! Glad it spoke to you!
      Also glad, you enjoy the experience from your side of the fence too! Isn’t the hear??!! Listening versus speaking is sometimes (at least for me) is such a treat! No pressure to engage! I’m perfectly fine with it when it happens! Especially If I am listening to an interesting debate or discussion! We can learn when listen. Much more than when we do most of or all the talking.
      Thank you abt your compliment on the friends. I’ll tell you, I do want to discover who J2 is when my life slows down a bit! I just know I would like to find out more about the ‘not so physically well’ and frail retired professor! I will share 😉

      Love and light to you my friend!

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      1. you are so right! we learn more when we listen and as much as people scare me, they fascinate me too! you have an amazing ability to make others feel comfortable in their own skin around you, I seem to feel this.

        look forward to your future discovery of this enigmatic personality (J2). an intellectual mind is a huge turn on for me and i would be an eager listener!

        hope you get some nice down time and take good care of yourself!


  3. Scenes like this I love. I cannot get enough of them. The moment is special. Sometimes things are a little off but that’s okay, we’re with the company we enjoy. You are so lucky to have these people in your life. Embrace it. Life can change in an instant, but until then enjoy.

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