My mind just said to me ‘don’t write! You are empty. Just.. don’t write! Ok?!’
But today, I had to put my foot down twice! And I’m glad I did! And I’d like to ‘document’ this mildly agonizing day with a few words. So when one day I look back, I remember that sometimes I just have to say Thanks but no thanks. Or just..no. We all have to.
I am going to be participating in an annual coffee event coming up. The event committee usually does a live interview on a local BreakfastTV Channel to promote the event. A program I never watch as to me watching TV during the day is an activity_or perhaps an inactivity_ that resembles sitting in a dentist’s chair! That’s how much I dislike it! But then I’m odd and I believe we have established that by now.
The event committee picked me to showcase the event live on TV this year! I declined. And I am perfectly comfortable with my decision! I could completely see how others would jump at the opportunity. Promoting their business and the event sounds very appealing! I personally do not enjoy being in the spotlight. It’s that simple. So it’s a no.
On the other hand, I’ve been keeping my mind busy doing some graphic design work, researching cold coffee brewing recipes with nitrogen and without, designing a big background of wood and copper piping to go behind our counter at the coffee event mentioned above! My mind is doing a lot of creative thinking and problem solving. No wonder it is feeling wary of writing a post.
The past couple of days, have been spent swimming on and off in a realm of mellow disappointment, and then wading into a shallow pool of…frustration. Nothing major. Nothing too serious. No deep agony. Just…life.
Lots of hours of sitting behind the computer. Creating graphics. Revising. Making changes. All that is required to create solid designs for a…local restaurant’s Corporate Identity and rebranding.
I don’t work regularly as a graphic designer anymore. I’ve had my coffee business for a few years now and I just take on graphic design projects sporadically. So it’s fair to say it takes me a little bit longer to produce a design that I am happy with.
When I finally presented to the client a couple days ago, they seemed to like the designs, and in the end decided upon one. All good. Until…
Until they started changing the design to a point it is no longer recognizable! That process generally happens a lot when you work as a designer. I was prepared. I finally advised any further changes will be hourly billed! As well as, I also cautioned against all the changes and supported my opinion with clear reasons and objectives.
It took some dealing with the unpleasantness of basically saying to the client ‘Stop making changes! Or this design will risk becoming suitable for a 9 year old Dandelion Cookie Fundraising Group!’! Thank Goodness I did not actually use that exact wording! However, they’ve responded to my gentler version of it, and already stated they are willing to go back to the original design! Of course, that is after giving my brain little mini aneurisms every single time they’d suggest a new change or add ‘more’ bright colours!
Life is…stressful sometimes! Life is…full of doubts and uncertainties at others! Questioning our decisions, reasoning, current mood, triggers, reaction etc is part of it all! But, knowing when to stop all of the questioning, and then making a decision that is inline with ‘our’ self respect and self value, is a skill we need to master. Otherwise, we may risk allowing life to fill in all the blanks, while we are standing there..watching from the sidelines.