Chris Cornell

This letter is for you:

I don’t care about your fame. Or your looks.

What I care about, is getting to know you.

When I heard the news, that you decided to leave. A few years ago. Life, suddenly got …really sad! And that hasn’t stopped! On and off.

First Amy Whinehouse!! Then you?! Then Anthony Bourdain!!!

I went to Amy Whinehouse [the movie], at an old retro theatre in town, when it first came out. I left the theatre in the end, speechless, and angry. Poor sad soul. How she was treated.

Today, I finished my work early. January is slow. So I can do ‘creative’ things, with my time. I can paint, draw and write stuff that no one cares about! Except I.

Chris Cornell, yes I can drive to art galleries, look at art hung up on walls! But your art, is so much more beautiful! I can’t see it, but I can hear it! And it’s so much easier for me to absorb. Because it only requires one sense. So I can fully focus.

Chris Cornell,

“Preaching The End Of The World” is really the perfect companion to my current state of mind. But my state of mind, can completely change, with your next song. And I think, that’s amazing!

You have touched me. Affected me. You’ve walked with me on cold Toronto streets, to my design classes, on those TO evenings! Where I spent 3 years, fully immersed from morning till evening, in design projects and design assignments! Hauling my backpack full of heavy design books, stale cafeteria sandwiches, water bottles, forgotten unwashed portable coffee mugs and an Apple laptop!

I remember “Be Yourself” beating in my ears, mixing up with my pounding heart, and my steps…on dark wet sidewalks! While running to catch my subway train.

I also remember, dedicating photography projects, to some of your songs! Where my photography prof was a bearded man called Peter! Who looked perfectly suited, to teach the 7 photography classes that I took with’m, over the span of 3 years!

  • Peter, told me once, that he went to the doctor one day, did some tests, and…discovered..he had ‘one kidney’! He said he had no idea! Pretty bizarre! I remember, not knowing what to say! I had no idea why my photography prof was telling me this news! But what I do remember very well, is his face! He looked, disappointed and maybe sad! Shocked, is probably a better word to describe it! I still don’t know why he told me!
  • I remember, pairing, “Black Hole Sun” with a ‘photogram’ photography assignment. Where I placed random objects (a cross, a thistle and a plastic dinosaur toy haha) on photographic paper, with the right surface upward. All took place on top of a light table. All was also done in complete darkness ‘of course ;)! Then I turned on the underneath light, for (I can’t remember how many seconds). I did a bunch of those. Until I had one that spoke to me. I still have those photos.
  • I used to wear a white T-shirt with the word ‘Grunge’ on the front. My partner on that project was Semcha from Milwaukee! And you….You were a big part of every project on those days!
  • I’ve got a photograph I’ll send it off today
    And you will see that I am perfectly sane
    Not for a lifetime or forever and a day
    ‘Cause we know now that just won’t be the case


    Author: Kat

    I used to work as a graphic designer, until one day I was tragically and blissfully hit by two colliding meteors! One caused my falling in love with the world of coffee! And the other resulted in me falling out of love with the not so wonderful and nearly suffocating office culture! I left the glamour of the design world, and opened up my little café! Those were the best years of my life! I say ‘were’, because (wait! May be another time! But please do ask me if you ‘must’ know and can’t sleep tonight unless I tell you!) For the past three years, I have been living in a pyramid shape house in a middle of a green forest in the summer; a green forest buried underneath lots - I mean LOTS - of snow in the winter. I used to ‘think I still do ;)’ love the city! With its buzzing energy! I love to travel and seeing different food and coffee scenes...preferably alone! visiting ‘quirky and unusual’ places! I do not love visiting museums, hugely commercialized areas, malls and landmarks! I love old and full of heritage ‘anything’! I also love, to sit in a busy coffeeshop ‘reading quietly’ and not talking! Talking exhausts me most of the time! Watching the world unfold.. and thinking ...never does!

    9 thoughts on “Chris Cornell”

    1. These things these things that mill around. A thousand fireflies of distraction.
      A little man on my shoulder told me I was worthless for many years.
      So,I gave someone hope. A chance to smile, and told the man to go away. No longer would I listen to his lies.
      They were all lies.
      Today I looked into the dark waters of a little lake and the moon spoke to me. Conditions were just right and silence whispered secrets of the value of paying attention to the sound of the wind.

      “How can we love more and fret less?!” Says the one who gives hope. Yes?

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    2. This is a heartfelt and marvelous homage to Chris Cornell, Kat. I like your photographic artwork and letter very much. It is such a pity that great artists get involved in drugs and some even commit suicide.

      The structure of your letter is very clear and the words are most powerful. The first two lines convey nothing but pure honesty: You don’t care about the looks or fame, you care about the inner soul of that person and his art as a musician. Also, I like how you relate the effect of Cornell’s and the other artists’ deaths to your artistic soul. You seem to be a multifaceted person: designer, photographer, writer… Wow!

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      1. Yes it is such a pity, how drugs, alcohol, deep old wounds, depression etc…can take such amazing talents from us!

        I am full of gratitude for your words Marta!

        Thank you for reading!

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    3. Oh, forgot something to say about these lines of your letter: “I can paint, draw and write stuff that no one cares about! Except I.” That is the only untruth in your piece here because we, your followers, do care. As I said, you are a multifaceted and very creative person.

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    4. This is beautiful Kat. It is incredible how deeply we can be affected by so many different kinds of art, and music is something that has always been a part of my life and my heart, so this post resonate very strongly with me. You are an incredible person, Kat!!!


      1. Thank you Susan.
        Music can make everything so much better. Glad you enjoy its magic too and love it as much as I do.
        When I had my cafe, if staff would let me get away with it and we are cleaning at the end of the day, I used to play ‘Death Cab/Soul Meets Body’ twice or three times in a row 😱! Crazy I know. Poor souls. I tortured them. But that album ruled my life for a while. Still does.
        Thank you for reading what I write Susan. And the encouragement means a lot.

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