Thank you in advance for reading this sequel! I hope you enjoyed it, as much as I enjoyed writing it!
The wine was beginning to infuse its liberating swirling spells, into her veins…
Slowly, the two miscible reds started mixing. Every time she took another sip, further red clouds were introduced into her bloodstream. And the two mixed reds, are now circulating. Traveling further and further….whooshing inside her body.
Finally, those red spells, did their magic! She could feel them hugging her heart, telling it ‘you don’t need to work as hard now! You can relax for a little while.’
The wine spells, spread and crossed every barrier, all the way to her brain. She felt her inhibitions shrinking into tiny little soldiers, incapable of fighting to keep her a prisoner inside her head! They could no longer constrain the shackles from bursting open.
She finally, started telling her story.
I listened! Her voice, sometimes, would get lowered down, then goes back up a little, then back down. She is obviously experiencing torment and pain, over the magnitude of her crime.
At one point in her story, I felt the details were disturbing. When she described her cold insistence, on getting her way. Is she an extortionist?! Is that really who this woman really is in essence?! And why on earth would she do something like that?! She does not even like the man!!!
On the other hand, it was clear, that he, liked her. In fact, he may have even loved her! May still does! But she obviously didn’t, and couldn’t love him back! She was incapable of feeling. How could she have, considering the level of her complexity! Considering how highly she values her freedom! A man, would take all that away! And she will be forced, to abandon that wild, calm, euphoric, serene, free and creative…being, inside her soul.
So she did what she knew best. She focused on his flaws. The truth is, he had plenty! Just as she did! And she ripped them to shreds, in her mind
She withdrew any kind of passion, or romance! And it was easy. She felt neither.
All he managed to do! Was irritate her. His giddiness when he would spot her, bothered her! It showed lack of self control.
His clumsiness, enraged her inside! She tried hard to find it endearing like those romantics do, and failed every single time!
Her attraction to strength?! Was fierce! As well as self confidence! For which, she had no compromise! And she was intuitive enough, to detect the slightest faking! The thinnest line of mimicry. And he faked a lot of both, strength, as well as confidence! To impress her!
She only feasted on his brain every now and then. His brain, at times, was shiny and beautiful! That was the part that allured her in the beginning! Until, she decided it was time to lose interest in that too.
Their other differences were staggering! It pained her to watch them get bigger and wider! The little ponds, were now raging oceans, separating her from him! He started to fade away…and day after day, she would drift some more herself.
There is no one to say she was right at how she handled it all! She recognizes her own flawed character. She knows who she is! She is a stubborn, cold, uncompromising woman! She could have one hand, petting a kitten, and the other! Slaying a poor soul that dared get too close, after watching her pet her kitten so tenderly.
She knows her random yearnings for love, but above all, her thirst, her passion…for strength, power…. and boldness. As well as, her attraction to beautiful shiny brains! Romance is secondary. The brain, on the other hand, is far more interesting. It’s where ideas live, among soooo many other exciting wonderful things.
So this poor woman sitting in front of me, did somethings she had never done before! She wanted the truth that she could not get for a long time! She needed to expose all the lies, casually thrown on the table in front of her, every time she saw him!
She asked for something she should’ve been given easily and freely. Something she was made to believe, was hers all along. It was denied!
So she insisted! It was withheld again! But not honestly! Not candidly! Rather covertly and patronizingly instead!
And that’s when, she very calmly, threatened something she had no intention of carrying through! Exposing secrets! Only her knew! Secrets she was entrusted with.
In her mind, she had done a terrible act.
In mine however?! An entirely different story forming now. One, I was happy to discover!
I could now, see this woman… And she is no villain. That’s for sure. She may have thought she was, but I will explain to her how wrong she was believing it!
What she does not know, is how he felt about it all in the end! When he looked at her and said ‘you are…an amazing woman!’. He was not angry. His stress was all gone!! Instead, he was still full of love! Even more love, when he finally realized, she would never actually hurt him! She just wanted him to act genuine and honest! That’s all she was interested in!
I tried my best, to get her to see things perspectively. I tried explaining to her, her flaws _although definitely there_ they are no ‘crimes’. They are… flaws.
She responded calmly, after she laughed first! It was not a boisterous laugh! Rather cathartic and sad! She said to me ‘You have missed one flaw! I lost my ability to believe anything he says. Even the truth!’
And I could see now!…it’s true! All she wanted, was honesty! Honesty about his real abilities. Honesty about all his lies. He failed enough times, for her to believe anything anymore! or…see any good truth!
He was a coward. And that?! She could finally see! And now?! She could leave him in peace! For good this time!
He knows he is naked now. He realizes she sees right through him! And he wants her more than ever! Because, she surprised him with her sudden kindness and grace! When he expected her to mock and ridicule!
She showed generosity towards him instead! Extended her hand, and helped him get up! And the only reason she did that?! Was…she pitied how he failed to hide his stress! So she did all she could, to get him to relax! In a quiet non rushing way! She let him be…she let herself be!
The night before, and the one before it too! She watched him try incredibly hard, to dodge and weave his way through! And she did not waver. He even pleaded. He changed his tone. Then he would go back, and fight some more. It confirmed he was weak all along. He was posturing all this time.
Today?! He can finally believe, her request is as simple as she promised it would be! All she wanted, was a visit! He invited her so many times before, and she had refused his invitation as she was never interested! Until a few days ago!
She finally figured, his instability stretches deep within his soul! He puts on a mask, of strength and confidence. To the outer world, he presents himself as trustworthy! His record of power, honour and respect, is long and glowing. Maybe, his fault was meeting her and never being able to forget her! He became her victim. She warned him she had no love to give so many times. Why did he stay?! She showed him her dark side! She faked nothing! She did not pretend love nor warmth. No sweet words were handed to him on a silver platter! Just freezing temperature all around, where his soul withered and suffered! Why did he not run?!
His answer when she used to ask him why he’d still linger around?! ‘I love you! I’ve accepted that! Nothing you do could change it’! The problem was, she believed none of it.
Today?! She allowed him to cook for her. Something he’s always wanted. She watched his joy in the kitchen! She had her gin and tonic in front of her, sitting at the kitchen island quietly across from him, watching him prepare their meal!
He was very excited! She was…somber and…quiet!
They sat at the dinner table! His wine collection is excellent! His scotch cabinet is thrilling to inspect!
He poured them a beautiful white wine to go with the meal! She thoroughly enjoyed it!
She finished her plate before he was even half through his! She was simply…hungry! And refused to act proper by following proper dinner manners, and matching his food consumption speed! She laughed at the idea crossing her head! He commented ‘this is the first time, you’ve ever finished your food before me!’! She responded ‘this is the first time, you’ve ever cooked for me! ;)’. He laughed and nodded in agreement!
He said he did not need help cleaning up after! Asked her to just enjoy her drink instead! She smiled and secretly welcomed it! Then watched how he methodically and obsessively, cleaned and put everything away!
Then, she felt tired, as she has not been sleeping lately, due to her deep disappointment in herself! She’s been spending night after night, questioning herself! What she did to this man! How much she desires to forget the last act! The extortion one. All to get him to do something incredibly simple! Show her who he really was. No more lies. No more pretence, to impress her! Just, the truth! And she finally got what she wanted.
She asked to lie down. He brought her a warm blanket! Wrapped it around her. Sat beside her. Kissed her forehead at one point! She fell asleep unaware of when he had left the room!
He came back later! She screamed as she was suddenly awaken by the little noise he had made! He apologized for startling her! She was obviously in a deep sleep!
On this man’s leather couch. There she laid, warped up in his blanket! Feeling completely peaceful! But why? She’s not supposed to feel peaceful! Yet she did!
She then, gave him back the blanket, and declared she needed to go!
She stood up, he wanted a hug. She couldn’t provide it. Smirked at him. Her eyes are empty! His are full of so many things! She’s just not the least interested in knowing what they were!
She put her coat on, opened the door, thanked him for his hospitality, and drove away! Then headed to see me! While fighting her disappointment in herself, over the extortion part! She hated herself.
I smiled and told her ‘oh honey! You did well! You did really…really well! I see that! I see you!’ And hugged her tenderly while she sobbed!
-image: Personal sketch