Decided To Write After All

Yes those are my boots and gloves left at entrance to the little bridge that leads to my front door! After coming back from getting to know the horses earlier today! At a ranch 15 min drive from my house!

Sigh

Why am I sighing?!

I got there! At the ranch. I was on time. The other participant was late. That’s not why I am sighing.

The rancher is a man in his late 50s. His hair is white and resembles a Roman emperor’s! Think Claudius.

The staff member is a young 23 years old from…hear this! California!!! My brain immediately felt this ‘it’s way too early for puzzles! I’m here for the horses!…but WHY is a 23 year old ‘here’ in the rugged cold mountains?! After growing up in sunny desert California weather!’!

Thankfully, it only took a couple of seconds for my brain to get smarter! I immediately felt relieved when it /my brain/ decided ‘irrelevant detail! Focus on subject. Horses. Girl is not the focus’!

I’m one of those people, who usually watch in full astonishment, when others standing beside what seems to be their forever ‘thirsty’ and curious well, smiling, and wanting nothing more, than filling it with unnecessary details about ‘any’ random traveler that happened to cross their path! I will never get it. I’m hardly curious that way! But then my brain isn’t typical. And that is not ‘always’ good, as you are getting to know me in this blogging land 😉 but let’s leave that complicated subject to the side for now, shall we!

To my surprise, the girl, that same 23 year old, from Cali, turned out to be one of those curious forever question askers herself! Way too young. I thought to myself.

She asked at one point: So I heard you’re a coffee roaster! (Her eyes are wide open with excitement) do you roast the coffee at your house?

Me: (do I play nice?!…play nice! For the love of God..play nice! Hide your fangs..oh oh one fang is about to show…hurry!’ So I answer: Yup. In my oven in my kitchen when I am not busy roasting a chicken or something else for dinner! I just basically throw a ‘couple’ green coffee beans on a baking sheet! And voila 🙂

The girl, to my total shock, says this: Oh THAT IS AMAZING!

Me thinking ‘oh no. She actually believes me! My fault. Totally my fault. Why didn’t I play nice!’ And at that moment I decided to casually blurt: um..actually no. I roast my coffee in a proper roasting facility. Separate from my house!

She laughed really loud! And then said ‘OH DO YOU EVER GET SICK OF THE SMELL OF COFFEE?! LOL LOL LOL’ her eyes looking at me like I have THE most exciting answer, which in her mind, will affirm her clever curious question to be…clever…and very…curious!

Sigh..now what do I say to that!

I responded after quietly looking at her studying her…big wide smile ‘no. I don’t.’

I didn’t lol with her.

Yes I’m awful sometimes!

It got better later. She honestly continued being her incredibly happy and overly enthused self! I was glad my quietness and horrible answers did not offend her! And after me and I, did an intervention to straighten out my awful horrible focused only on task and task alone ‘horses in this case’ brain! It began to behave. The girl and I became good friends and we walked hugging each other’s shoulder side by side…all the way around the ranch and back!

No. We didn’t.

Author: Kat

I used to work as a graphic designer, until one day I was tragically and blissfully hit by two colliding meteors! One caused my falling in love with the world of coffee! And the other resulted in me falling out of love with the not so wonderful and nearly suffocating office culture! I left the glamour of the design world, and opened up my little café! Those were the best years of my life! I say ‘were’, because (wait! May be another time! But please do ask me if you ‘must’ know and can’t sleep tonight unless I tell you!) For the past three years, I have been living in a pyramid shape house in a middle of a green forest in the summer; a green forest buried underneath lots - I mean LOTS - of snow in the winter. I used to ‘think I still do ;)’ love the city! With its buzzing energy! I love to travel and seeing different food and coffee scenes...preferably alone! visiting ‘quirky and unusual’ places! I do not love visiting museums, hugely commercialized areas, malls and landmarks! I love old and full of heritage ‘anything’! I also love, to sit in a busy coffeeshop ‘reading quietly’ and not talking! Talking exhausts me most of the time! Watching the world unfold.. and thinking ...never does!

19 thoughts on “Decided To Write After All”

    1. I started smiling reading your lovely words Gina! You are incredibly sweet!
      Thank you!

      In the end, we are all very complicated beings! I don’t think I get necessarily ‘mean’ when I’m not ‘overly nice’! I just get a bit quiet! And my smart a** answers just leap out of my mouth!

      Mean scares me 🙂 so I promise to behave Gina 🙂
      Warm hugs and ♥️

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      1. it scares me how mean I can be and usually am so sad with myself after, but it does serve as a means of protection, allowing people to get close is scary, you handled this brilliantly.

        oh just be you that is prefect!

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      2. Oh and Gina, one more thing. Listen to this song: White Winter Hymnal/Fleet Foxes! It honestly just changed my entire mood, along your lovely soothing words of course, to a completely loving one towards the world! Music is amazing

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      3. my dear i don’t know what to say, serendipity loves you and me, this is my late son’s most favourite song, that is all i can say for now, and thank you and love you

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  1. Don’t hide 🙂 just tell the world this: I am a sweet soul and you _meaning the world_ need me! People like me are rare! We make you _again the world_ look so much brighter and happier!

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    1. Thank you Susan! Glad you were smiling the entire time! 🙂
      And thank you for those wonderful words you wrote! Satirical playfulness and arsenal of wit is ok I guess if used for good not evil just like any other supernatural power! 😉
      Thank you for liking the red rubber boots ♥️

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    1. Thank you Michael! This place ‘this site’ has become my refuge among my tribe, who I like to think, accept me with all my flaws, and not only accept me, but encourage me to be me! It’s the best thing that has happened to me for a while

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  2. Kat, it’s funny, when I think about it (and I think about it a lot …!). All any of us want is someone who thinks we’re cool, just the way we are. Someone with whom we can be all the weird and strange and beautiful and quirky and odd things and parts and ways we are. And when we ARE those things, our ‘other’ who is with us (friend, family, spouse, anyone really) goes (and verbally tells us, not just thinks it in her / her mind, and we’re supposed to ‘know’ these things somehow) … ‘you’re cool. I really like you. I really like who you are. in fact … you’re beautiful. in fact, of COURSE you are beautiful! so beautiful that just to watch you is a thing of beauty, just to be with you is like watching a spectacular sunset, a sunrise.’

    that’s what I think we long to hear. that’s what I think we long to feel. we crave it. hunger for it.

    Those kinds of things.

    And here’s the amazing thing (to me) … it’s the words that make that happen. It’s the words that change everything.

    And often, we don’t get that feeling of being beautiful from the one we are with. we don’t hear those words — and it is the words spoken, or not.

    There’s so much to this oh so simple thing.

    there are ‘problems’ here with this … not problems, but … considerations. cautions.

    but that’s all for now, because I must work!! lol … To tell someone that he or she is beautiful, is a powerful thing. To actually see that person’s beauty … to feel it, know it, be in awe of it … well, just as some of us can look at a sunset, and go oh that’s beautiful, and that’s enough and on to the next thing … and some of us can look at a sunset and literally stop, mesmerized, in awe of it, night after night … so too might some of us see beauty to a degree, that others might not. in a sunset. a person. a flower. a horse. a cup of coffee … lol …

    I’ve GOT to get to work! thanks for sharing YOU, Kat. It allows me, and other kindred spirits here, to open as well.

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